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The Kris Story, Part XV
or...Epiphany
7.2.8

What did we talk about for all those hours? It all blends together now.

I know that I asked about her recent sneaky escape from Zio's. Steve had, of course, lied when he told me that he didn't know anything about it. Beforehand, they had planned out the staged goodbyes that had led to their rendezvous behind the restaurant.

I also asked about the journal entries I had found, questioning how two years of love could disappear overnight.

She fell back on her previous accusations of my controlling behavior, this time expounding upon them. Now it was also I who had "made" her quit drugs. This, of course, despite the heartfelt letter she had once written thanking me for my role in ending those "dark times." When she quit smoking pot, she had told me that it was because being with me made her want to be a better person.

She also blamed me for her not having gone to college.

Most horrendously, she correlated this supposed control issue to what she had said outside of Zio's the day before. Our shitty sex life, her sudden lack of love for me, the excessive drinking, her nights out...she placed most of the blame for all of this on one thing. "Every time I look at you, I just see the man who made me kill my baby."